Soliloquy

It was full of fun when you are around. The air is so filled with laughter and joy and love. My only thought was you and no one else. You were my sunshine. My joy. My one and only love. but then again I never have one.

You were like summer in a cold day. You were like winter when the sun was hot. But most of all, you were just YOU and no one else. You were everything I dreamed of. You were everything. Every little thing was you. You alone brightens up my day.You were my smile, my laugh, my heart. It has and always had been you from the moment I first saw you. Call it love-at-first-sight or whatever but it will always be you.

So why then would you  leave me behind?Why then would you leave without saying goodbye?Why?WHY?

You knew how I felt! You knew I love!

As much as I want to say those cruel words to you, I just can't. Your gone forever and I won't see you again (though in my dreams and delusions, you will always be). I was part of you, and you are a part of me. Nothing will ever change that. I may miss your warmth embrace, your hot-tongued kiss, your dashing smile, I might even want to see you cry, but that is all there is to it.

I can miss you, I can love you with all that I am but I can't hold you that is the honest truth.

Happy monthday!, my cute puppy...wherever you are, whatever you may be doing, I'll always be here waiting, in case you want to come back to me...