I lied once when i said "good"
I lied twice when i said "yes"
I lied thrice when the words had spelled "am not hurt"
I lied so many times before that my life is but a lie
I lied again again when they asked "are you okay?"
I lied for the fifth time when they said "tell us in detail"
And then again I lied when I said I will always be your friend
The world is too cruel to be true
Too harsh to call my home
My life is but a lie but your the only truth in my life
Last night when we were eating, I heard a conversation saying "Sorry is not enough to the wounded person."
Is it really? Is sorry not enough? When I heard it, it made me wonder. When I made a mistake or wounded someone, I would say "I'm sorry".I would plead for that person to forgive me, though sometimes it takes me months to say so. When I saw people quarreling, I want them to forgive each other right away.
Is sorry really not enough?
I was always saying sorry and I've never really the one being said sorry to. Is sorry really not enough? Is it?
I wonder...
Defense Mechanism
In Freudian psychoanalytic theory, defense mechanisms are unconscious psychological strategies brought into play by various entities to cope with reality and to maintain self-image. Healthy persons normally use different defenses throughout life. An ego defense mechanism becomes pathological only when its persistent use leads to maladaptive behavior such that the physical and/or mental health of the individual is adversely affected. The purpose of ego defense mechanisms is to protect the mind/self/ego from anxiety, social sanctions or to provide a refuge from a situation with which one cannot currently cope.
They are more accurately referred to as ego defense mechanisms, and can thus be categorized as occurring when the id impulses are in conflict with each other, when the id impulses conflict with super-ego values and beliefs, and when an external threat is posed to the ego.
The term "defense mechanism" is often thought to refer to a definitive singular term for personality traits which arise due to loss or traumatic experiences, but more accurately refers to several types of reactions which were identified during and after daughter Anna Freud's time.
So, was I lying again? or was it just a "defense mechanism"?
When I don’t want to hear something I cover my ears with my hands and chant “LALALALALALA”.
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What I told you was true. The thing I said wasn't a lie. Yet why?
Why do I feel like taking back those words? Why do I feel like I shouldn't have said those words?It's stupid I know. Stupid and crazy. I know for a fact that I've burdened you with those words...but I can't simply I trust what I said.
I'm sorry...
What now? What now?
